I Miss You

My husband recently suffered a traumatic brain injury. I am  writing this as I sit in a hospital bed beside his and will probably share more of our journey as we go through it.

Soon after his accident, he knew me which was a huge blessing. I’ve barely left my husband’s side throughout his hospital stay and rehab.  During the first two weeks his conversation was very limited, and most of it made very little sense.

I can remember thinking how much I missed him (and still do at times) even though I was right there by his side every day. I’ve missed deep conversations which include more than short discussions regarding his comfort and care.  I’ve missed sharing old memories and laughing about new ones. I’ve missed that twinkle in his eye as he gives me a hard time.

But I also remember thinking about how our Heavenly Father must feel that way about me at times.  Is He saying, “I miss you”? I talk to him daily. I pray often as I go through my day about things that I need and about the needs of others. But does He long for more?

Unfortunately, I have to admit that I get busy with the distractions of life and a lot of my conversations with God are possibly nothing more than babbling to His ears. He has used these moments with my husband to help me realize that God is saying, “I miss you.  Slow down and really talk to me.”  I need to spend more time in meaningful conversations praising Him for all that He has done, reading my Bible, and actually listening to what He has to say. How about you?  Is God saying, “I miss you”?

The Lord is with you, mighty warrior. Judges 6:12
Battles are raging all around. I see many friends struggling with the distress of situations that seem too much to bear. These disheartening battles include cancer, heart disease, injuries, mental illness, financial difficulties, addictions, lawsuits, false accusations, broken families, and fighting an actual war. Our children aren’t even immune. Their struggles include peer pressure, eating disorders, bullies, anxiety, and even terminal illness. The list goes on and on.
The Israelites experienced many difficulties. In Judges chapter six, they faced oppression from the Midianites who, during a seven year period, often destroyed the crops, livestock, and homes of the Israelites. God appointed Gideon to deliver Israel from the hand of Midian, but Gideon was afraid and confused about how that was possible when his people were the weakest in the land. God assured him in verse 16: “I will be with you, and you will strike down all the Midianites together.”
We all have battles which God has called us to fight, but like Gideon, we can be certain that God is with us. Often we feel weak and think our struggles are more than we can bear. Realistically, without the strength that can only be given by God, we probably couldn’t handle such situations on our own. What a blessing to know that he will be with us through the battles of life.
Deuteronomy 31:6 says, “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you or forsake you.”
It doesn’t matter what we are going through, God will give us the power to overcome it through His strength! Find courage today in knowing that God will be with you through the battles of life. You are a mighty warrior through Him!

Facing My Fear

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What scares you?  I mean really scares you…to the point of being physically ill and unable to think of anything else.  How do you deal with fear that grips your body, mind, and spirit?  Do you curl up in a ball and just give up or do you dig down deep and find the courage to face that fear head on?

I am facing one of my greatest fears…flying.  I’ve never flown and never planned to fly because the thought of it terrifies me.  I fully comprehend the fact that it’s safer than my daily drive to work.  I am not afraid of dying.  I know that if I die I am going to my heavenly home because I have accepted Jesus Christ as my personal savior.

So why am I so frightened by something that people do every day?  I really don’t know.  Maybe it’s that sense of having no control or simply getting out of my comfort zone.  I can’t nudge the pilot to get his/her attention about something ahead.  I can’t cry out for him/her to slow down or watch out!  I won’t have any idea of what is normal and what is truly something to be alarmed about.  I just have so many questions and there are so many unknowns.  I have searched the internet to gain as much knowledge as possible, but I still worry that my fear will take over what my heart knows:  God is in control, and He will be with me every step of the way.

We all experience times in our lives in which we face great fear and uncertainty.  Moments when we feel we have absolutely no control.  Moments when we aren’t sure what the future holds.  And moments when there are many unanswered questions.  It doesn’t matter if you are facing something as insignificant as doing something for the first time or if you are facing something life changing.  The same fear can creep in and make you miserable.  Faith can help us learn to face these fears with a peace that only God can provide.

If you are living in fear and uncertainty today, I’m going to offer you the same advice I’ve been giving myself over the last few days.

  • Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.  Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand.  His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.  Philippians 4:6-7  Keep praying!
  • I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Philippians 4:13  With His strength, I can do this!
  • She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. Proverbs 31:25 NLT  I want to be so prepared spiritually that I can laugh and enjoy every moment with no fear!

Remembering that God is control will help you to face your fears.  There is nothing that will happen that you can’t handle with His help.  Also trust that He will be with you every step of the way sitting beside you, holding your hand, and even carrying you through when necessary.  You may not always feel His presence but know trust that He is there.  Finally, pray.  Be honest with God about your anxiety and share your deepest fears and concern with Him.  So put your trust in Him and face your fear with the strength only He can provide!


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wait for the lord

Have you ever called 911?  Unfortunately, help is not always immediately available, and those who need to be rescued from water, fire, or any other danger must wait.  It may only be a matter of minutes before help arrives, but it can seem like an eternity as you wait anxiously for that much needed help.

The call for help must be dispatched out to rescuers who quickly prepare for the situation by gathering whatever special equipment may be necessary for rescue.  When we are drowning in life’s problems, we expect God to instantly deliver us once we call out for help, but the reality is sometimes we may find ourselves waiting.   Psalms 34:17 says, “The Lord hears his people when they call to him for help.  He rescues them from all their troubles.”  It doesn’t say that God will immediately remove us from the situation.  It says He will hear our cry, and He will rescue us. Just as in calling 911, God’s help doesn’t always come as quickly as we would like.  Sometimes He must make preparations for our rescue.  Maybe our heart or the hearts of others need to be prepared before our rescue is completed.  So we must wait for His timing.

After receiving the call and preparing for the situation, the rescuers must get to the victim.  Unfortunately, sometimes we make it hard for God to reach us.  Like a drowning victim who may push down their rescuer, we actually push God away as he reaches for us.  We want His help but our instinct to survive causes us to thrash in the water.  For example, when He tries to deliver us, we insist on doing things our own way because we don’t like His plan or aren’t willing to wait for His rescue plans to be revealed.  Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. 1 Peter 5:6NIV Wait for His plan to be revealed. 

We expect God’s rescue to immediately remove every difficulty from our lives.  However, keep in mind that when a victim is rescued from danger, there are often injuries that require medical attention and healing.  After God rescues us from our troubles, we too may have issues that require His attention and time for healing.  We must allow Him to care for our wounds and not push Him away as soon as we are rescued.  God can heal our heart and pain, but the healing process takes time. And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. Philippians 1:6 Wait for His complete healing in your life.  

Psalms 34 continues with “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit” (v18).  This does not say that He heals the broken heart, but instead He is near…like a mother is near to comfort us in our pain.  A mother may not always fix the problem, but having her near definitely generates strength and comfort in most any circumstance.  God’s plan doesn’t always including removing our problem, but we can trust that He will always be near to give strength and peace while easing our suffering.  But they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31  Trust that He is close when you’re crushed by the struggles of life.

So in times of trouble, remember to wait for His timing, wait for His plan to be revealed, wait for healing, and finally trust that He is near.




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After having my first chiropractic adjustment this week, I was reminded of this post. Since I’ve also experienced some life adjustments lately, I wanted to share this for others who may be feeling the pressure of spiritual adjustments.

Strength Renewed

Yesterday I hesitantly went with my daughter for her first visit to the chiropractor due to back pain.  I sat in the corner of the room preferring to be in the waiting room or shopping, but because she wanted me there, I went.  I recoiled as I watched him apply pressure, twist, and jerk her body.  Joints popped and her body twisted abnormally as the chiropractor made adjustments.  He assured me it looked much worse than it felt, but I don’t think he will ever be seeing me again!  My daughter however was astonished at the difference it made in the way she felt.  The adjustment appeared to be uncomfortable to say the least, but the results were worth it to her.

Often we must go through uncomfortable adjustments in life to get everything lined up just as God desires it to be. Those adjustments often come in the form…

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Let Your Light Shine

Strength Renewed

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 Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.   It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God.  

Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do.   We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us. It is not just in some; it is in everyone.  

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others.  (An excerpt…

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Don't let anythingDo you ever feel that you are less of a Christian than others?  We often wonder why others have more faith or why some people seem to have it all together while we struggle daily.  Satan thrives on those insecurities and self-doubts and works diligently to convince us that we have less to offer than others.  Satan assures us that we are “nobody” and could never accomplish what Moses and so many others have done before us.  But God did not create all of us to be Moses.  He wants you to be the person he created you to be.  He has a special plan just for you.  God chose you to be you!

A famous Jewish quote says:  A rabbi named Zusya died and went to stand before the judgment seat of God. As he waited for God to appear, he grew nervous thinking about his life and how little he had done. He began to imagine that God was going to ask him, “Why weren’t you Moses or why weren’t you Solomon or why weren’t you David?” But when God appeared, the rabbi was surprised. God simply asked, “Why weren’t you Zusya?”

The question really is have I done what God has prepared me to do?  Am I living up to His expectations for me?  We limit ourselves by our own insecurities and believe Satan’s lies that we can’t achieve great things.  But the truth is that God will provide the strength, knowledge, and whatever is needed to accomplish the task that He wants us to accomplish.  When young David killed Goliath, he used the skills that God had given him as well as his faith that God would make available the power to defeat the giant.  David was prepared for the task.  He just had to follow through.

We all have some type of insecurity that could keep us from doing something.  Moses stuttered, David was a young boy, Abraham was old, Jonah was a coward, Joseph was abused, Zacchaeus was short, and Rahab was a prostitute.  The list could go on and on of people in the Bible who had insecurities that could have stopped them from accomplishing God’s will, but instead they stepped out on faith and did something, trusting that God would provide.  He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak – Isaiah 40:29.  We may be weak, but we can be sure that God will supply all the strength we need.

God won’t ask us why we didn’t accomplish what others have, but instead He will ask why we didn’t accomplish what He prepared us to do.  Romans 14:12 says, “So then each of us will give an account of himself to God.”  One day we will be held accountable for our actions.  The things we did and didn’t do.  God does not expect you to accomplish all that Moses did.  He only expects you to accomplish what He has equipped you and only you to accomplish.  Be the best you can be!  Believe that God loves you and will provide all that is necessary to be the you that He created you to be.  When you hear a voice telling you that you can’t, ignore it and step out in faith!

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